She swore. She yelled at all of us. She tried to get out of bed and fell. Because of anti abuse laws, there can’t be rails on the beds. So they had a bed alarm on her. It was ringing constantly.

She hated the smell of Germ-X which is what they use each time they enter the room. So whenever she smelled it she told the person ‘I hate your aftershave’. She saw men entering and leaving her closet like it was an elevator. She saw people walk past her second story window.

She didn’t recognize me most of the time and yelled at whoever came close. She accused them of pinching her and thought everyone was rough. When she did recognize me she was very possessive and wouldn’t let me leave her. At one time when she did know me she made me stay with her. She made me leave my daughter as hostage when she did need me to get help and the sad thing is she was serious.

Anytime someone had to move her she said hateful things to them.

Had I been more prepared I wouldn’t have taken any of my kids to see their grandmother like this. Yet we learned what love is. Love is truly love when given toward one who cannot reciprocate.  That is the closest thing to God like love there is.

The crazy thing about coming off Alprazolam that fast is that the hearing becomes super sensitive so she could hear us whispering about her. After years of near deafness, this was odd.

So, why did she need to come off alprazolam. I am still not really sure why they took her off for those first few days after being admitted to the hospital for the bowel obstruction. I think the doctor said she had so many things going on that they wanted to take that part of the equation out of the way.

So, after 72 hours they put her on Lorazepam which is similar to Alprazolam mostly because it was that only way to get it into her since she wasn’t taking anything by mouth and she was on IV. The crazy symptoms disappeared and she “returned” to us. She was still confused but the fighting, crazy person was gone.

Wow, I really hope I never have to see that again.

Lord willing this will be a year of change – good changes.  I hope to trust in God’s grace more, love others more, be the mother I always dreamed of, wife too…

I have come face to face with my age this year.  Though it is not diagnosed, I have several rough sore moles so I am a bit edgy.  I am treating them with Vitae Elixxir (VE).  I will keep you posted with the VE treatments.  I did a trail treatment on some flat, keratosis cancers on my arms and they came out with “roots”.  So this treatment is more involved.

The one mole on my shoulder was as big as a tomato seed.  But after treating it with VE is has grown to the size of a dime!  Cancers are bigger than they look on the surface kind of like an iceberg – 1 part visible; 9 parts down below!

I guess I am going to take my own advice and do raw veggies and juices sort of a Halleluia diet.  I will be documenting this on my www.justnaturalcures.com so if you are interested in keeping up with it read about it there.

Keep me/us in your prayers.  And God be with you, too!

I found out the hard way that I cannot do a strict detox regimen.  Headaches, debilitating tiredness, nausea, etc.  All these made life miserable for a few days.

I have adjusted my plans to detox to a more gradual program, one that is less strict but effective in the long term.

Here is my plan.  I will drink fresh water throughout the day.  I will eat a good fruit based breakfast with an egg from time to time.  I will have small portions of whatever main course is being served but eat it with a large salad of dark leafy greens and mixed raqw veggies.

It will take longer but I can continue to  serve my family and know I am feeding my body well, too.

Here is what we plan to do:

• For the next four days we are eating only raw fruit and veggies.  I will use a light dressing made of ACV and a touch of olive oil/flax oil with herbs.
• We will drink plenty of fresh well water and herb teas.
• ON Monday, the 17th, we will go to just fruit and vegetable juices.  I will add Perfect food by Garden of Life to “fill in the blanks”.
• I am also doing interval training to help ramp up my metabolism.

I will keep you up to date with the progress as well as any modifications to the cleanse as we go along.