Lord willing this will be a year of change – good changes.  I hope to trust in God’s grace more, love others more, be the mother I always dreamed of, wife too…

I have come face to face with my age this year.  Though it is not diagnosed, I have several rough sore moles so I am a bit edgy.  I am treating them with Vitae Elixxir (VE).  I will keep you posted with the VE treatments.  I did a trail treatment on some flat, keratosis cancers on my arms and they came out with “roots”.  So this treatment is more involved.

The one mole on my shoulder was as big as a tomato seed.  But after treating it with VE is has grown to the size of a dime!  Cancers are bigger than they look on the surface kind of like an iceberg – 1 part visible; 9 parts down below!

I guess I am going to take my own advice and do raw veggies and juices sort of a Halleluia diet.  I will be documenting this on my www.justnaturalcures.com so if you are interested in keeping up with it read about it there.

Keep me/us in your prayers.  And God be with you, too!

Love is patient, love is kind, …am I really?  I find myself cringing as I recover from a moment of impatience and unkind all throughout the day.  I know I could do better but… what is my excuse?  I am tired, I am stressed, whatever my excuse, it isn’t worthy of a follower of Christ.

Paul, who penned this long passage on scripture, also encouraged us to be imitators of him as he was also of Christ.  I want to Lord, I want to.

My family doesn’t get the best of me.  My Lord doesn’t get the best of me.  I give my best to strangers or aquaintances but I let loose on my loves ones!!!

I will take the time to memorize this passage of verse with my son.  But more than that I will endeavor to infuse its meaning into my life.  I want to dig into the heart of what Paul was trying to teach the Corinthians.

In coming weeks I may share nuggets the Lord gives me as I soak up his word.

Last week my husband and I were making necessary renovations on my in-laws bathroom to make it safer for Betty. She must use a walker at all times and we needed to make the doorway wider.  This meant taking out a wall (easy in an older mobile home) and replacing the corner bathroom sink cabinet with a straight one as well as other details.

In the process of replumbing, a slight spurt began and there was no way to go further without turning off the main water to the house. 

Now, the tricky part here is the main water valve happens to be inconveniently placed.  We have a trailer parked directly over it (I know, BAD plan).  But nothing could be done but that I shinny under the trailer and reach down the hole that is a full arm’s length deep and turn it off.  This I did with great effort as I am not as skinny as I used to be or as agile.  It was dark.  And, yes, there were spiders and other such like under the trailer and down the hole.  Nevertheless, the deed got done - not without trepidation, though.

The leak was fixed so off I went to turn the water back on.  Did I tell you that I had spied down the 24″ deep 6″ wide hole – webs and bug carcasses?  I did what needed to be done and got out of there.  But as I began my scoot, I dislodged a rather large spider that was probably just as upset as I was!  It plopped on my nose and scurried off into the dark.  (hear me groan/shreak)  I was OUT of there.

I never knew it till then just how deeply frightened I was of dark, tight places.  It really scared me to my core.  I shook for the rest of the night and we only got the necessary work done on the bathroom to get it functional for them.

For almost two days I was sort of “out of it” – not really depressed but not my usual industrious self.  I was reliving the spider on the nose in my dreams.  And I sort of felt covered with webs even a day later. I was having a hard time snapping out of it. 

My prayer life has been rather utilitarian of late – short and to the point.  I will talk to God all through the day – kind of an ongoing discussion.

Well, the usual prayers were not enough, obviously.  And I am thankful that the Spirit reminded me of an account in the Old Testament when the Israelites were being bitten by poisonous snakes yet they had made for them a pole on which was fixed the brazen serpent.  They were to look upon it and be instantly healed.  All they had to do was look.  They didn’t have to say anything or do anything but look upon it.  but they still had to have the faith to look.

How did this help me?  I remembered that God not only saved me utterly from my sins but he also gave me the power to never sin again.  He gave me the power to never fear (which is the opposite of faith).  In my mind’s eye I looked upon Jesus, my Savior, and He took away all fear.  Yes, I had to look but that is all – He did the rest.  He took away my fear.  He took away the creepy feeling.  He took away the ugly part of the memory leaving only the useful part of the memory (does that make sense?)  To God be the glory!

Now, I didn’t test my new state of being (ie. crawl under the trailer again) but In my mind/heart I knew it was OK and I could do it if it needed doing. 

God saved me from sin and now I know he utterly saved me in life.  I can face fears with Him – He showed himself strong where I was weak.  Praise God!

Hope this helps to encourage you to look to Him who saves completely.